I spent the whole week putting a puzzle together a thousand pieces. My daughter and myself felt like we accomplished something great when we put the last piece in its place, we high five and went to get up, but by the Gods of puzzles, the dog jumped up on the table and pulled the table clothe. There went the puzzle crashing down to the floor.
My daughter yelled at the dog as i was in the other room getting the glue so we could glue it to a poster board.
When i got back into the kitchen, you my first thought was to glue his paws together, but then i thought that i would get in trouble.
The pieces were mostly still together so i put them back in place. When i was done there pieces missing a good 5.
I scratched my head for a minute when my daughter told me that she was yelling at the dog to spit the pieces out that he was eating.
So now i got a puzzle of 995 pieces and a dog with glued paws(joke people)

    On a rainy Florida, turned out to be one of the days that will be burned into ones mind.  I was getting ready to go out with my family when the call came in that one of the closes people in my life, a great uncle of mine, had taken his last look at this world of ours.
    I remember so much and realize how fast passes one by,  everyone forgot about dinner and now sit like zombies and i know that they cannot believe that he is gone, neither can I can.
    I have been blessed growing up in such a close nit family,  from brothers, aunts, uncles, and cousins still getting together on weekends for family gatherings. We all reminisce about our childhoods and talk about all our troubles in life.
    I must honestly say and feel that I am one of the few that can honestly say this I have had always a great family.
    But, today we say goodbye to the oldest member of our family, he was 74 years old and though he was getting up in age, he was still a very strong man that still worked hard on his farm in Puerto Rico, daily.
    His age had nothing to do with his premature departure, he tripped and stumbled down the hill that he had traveled everyday for so many years.  My cousin ran down after him, they say the scream that he let out could be heard through the whole island, living in a area that everyone knows everyone it is hard to imagine whats going through there mind at this moment.
    My beloved aunt, she has suffered through three heart attacks, has had open heart surgery twice and suffers of dementia  is left alone, without her beloved husband.
    He was a father, a grandfather, a great grandfather and was beloved by all.  We say goodbye and burn his memory into our minds.
    He was a man that was healthier than most young people are today, was in the Korean war, lived in his time a great life, was a funny man, loyal to his family and friends.  God knows he will be missed


Jose Quiles
1934-2008

    Damn, just let me start by saying that. I started to work out and i used that new thing on TV P90x workout system and let me tell you they feel no mercy for you, theres no excuses when it comes to the workout.
    After 10 minutes, I felt like a fish out of water gasping for air, I swore that i was going to get into it and not stop, but when i felt like my heart was going to explode, i sat back for a minute to recoup I didn't want to get back up, but i did push myself and went on to continue.
    Ive been on a diet and made myself more active, but I'm stuck at a weight that i still don't want to be. I'm weighing in at 292lbs, this from being a whopping 365lbs. It has taken me  long time to get to this point, but i want to get further and actually see a change in everything.
    I don't have a big support group to workout with, but the one person i do is great, he's an animal when it comes to working out. So now I feel the energy that i never thought i would feel, I have done things that i thought i would never see myself do.
    I just hope that this workout doesn't kill me, because it is hard and thats no lie, i turn the volume down, put subtitles on and then jam to my own music, but being a big guy let me tell you i can hardly do any of the exercises but i do my best, so a hell yeah to me.
     OK i gotta stop writing cause my arms feel like steel rods that i can barely lift.

    I go the mail Saturday morning, get the mail through it in the back seat without even looking through it, yeah it shows how responsible i can be when it comes to looking at bills and junk mail.
    My day passes by and i get most of nothing done except day dream about going fishing and listening to my daughter complain that she is bored.
    I'm still recovering from the sunburn i got while i was at Busch Gardens, my head still hurts like heck, think i should let some hair grow there, but theres a reason why i don't that happens to slip by me at this moment.
    Anyway let me get to why i am even writing this, Sunday morning comes and I decide to look through the mail and when half way through the pile I see two letters from my ex-wife.
I stared for moment, in disbelief mainly for I have not spoken to her in almost four years.
    She has never even sent a gift to our daughter on any of the holidays including her birthday. So after the initial shock I open the first one, pulled out the letter and a check floated to the table.
    A twenty dollar check, thats right twenty and the letter simply said, "Here's my child support." Thats all it said, i was so excited that i couldn't wait to open the other letter. This one had a few more words in it and the check was a whole lot bigger, the fifty i spent at Busch Gardens I got back as child support. I wont even bother even writing down what the letter said, just not worth it.
    Ok this is where i get pissed, I buy everything for my daughter, you name it i have to get, I'm not complaining by no means, but why is it so hard for someone to pay their child support? Can some one please tell me, I have always paid my child support for my two older children and have made sure to let them know that they mean the world to me, but i know there are people out there that think that kids are not a responsibility to them when they are not together or shit they didn't even want kids, but were to lazy to use protection or tell their partner to use some, either way a child is born.
    For almost four years this women that i once really cared about, decides to call me and tell me to get my daughter, not our daughter but my daughter. Fine she has trouble taking care of her, but i didn't tell her to get married again and have another child. I swear i didn't, but she did and i don't think that should lesson her responsibility, but in her mind it does, this is the same women that when she had our daughter, thought that i should pay four hundred dollars in child support a week, well, judge laughed.
    Since she didn't get what she wanted, she handed her over to me as if she was a puppy or another material item. Time has gone by and i still talk to my daughter about her mother in a good way, i will let her see for herself and for her make her own decision when it comes to her mother.
    So yeah I'm bitter about only getting a total of seventy dollars in four years.

    I went to Busch Gardens today on a school trip and let me tell you there were more kids there than i could handle being around, I love kids but when there are that many WOW!
I spent the day with my brother, his daughter, my daughter and four kids.
    Ok, the kids were great, we had a blast for the most part, until one of the little girls decided to use the bathroom, the problem comes in when she decided doing this on herself instead of the bathroom.
    She didn't have any other clothes to wear and to be honest my brother and I are not used to this kind of thing, let me tell you though, she is a nine year child, thought i would through that in there.
    We were stumped as were the other kids, we tried to find the other parents that were there and maybe a school staff, but of course there was nobody to found at that one particular time.
    So we dug into our pockets and bought her a new outfit, which cost an arm and a leg coming out of the park, yeah we spent almost fifty dollars on a pair of shorts and a simple tee-shirt.
    Funny thing is that this all happened around the midway point of the day, when we did find someone that was part of the school, we were told that we shouldn't have done that, i thought that was wrong, but i let it go. They ended up taking the child with them and trade a boy with us, which was great, he was the funniest kid i have ever had the pleasure of hanging out with on any school trip i have ever been.
    So at the end of the night everyone is tired and we make our way back to the school buses to get ready and go home. When i notice that the little girl that had been with us with wearing a different outfit, I walked up to the teacher and when I'm about to say something she tells me to be quiet and leave it alone. I couldn't do anything but laugh at this point.
    When we get back to the school, the teacher told me to give her the receipt so she can give it her mother. I thought i was going to get some money, but all that the mother did was say thank you for the gifts and walked away.
    Ok maybe I'm not the brightest person on the planet but damn, your kid just cost people like a hundred bucks cause she pissed herself not once but twice and all you say is thank you for the gifts.
    All i have to say is what the flippin heck was that all about?
SO yeah that was my day, then on top of that I got sunburn on the top of my head to finish it off.

I woke this morning, kinda depressed looking around the house and picking up the toys my daughter left laying around the night before.  I for so long didnt realize that single mothers have it so hard until it was thrust upon me when my ex decided to split and leave her behind.
After she left it was hard, i didnt know what to do with a little girl she was 6 months old and so beautiful, thank God i had a family support system at the time that helped more than i can ever thank them.
Funny thing is she left because it was to much to handle, i admit kids are hard to raise, now i know what i put my parents through, but they had each other to lean on, but these days Im alone.
What i have found though is that its hard to even get a date, when you cannot get a babysitter, because you decided to start fresh in another state, not only did i move all the way down to florida i left all my friends behind.
That was three years ago at the time when my daughter was two, i thought that the change would be good.
You know what though, nothing beats having friends that you grew up with around, it seems that everyone i meet here is pretty freak'n fake and carry a knife just so they can be prepared to stab you in the back.
Today is my daughter is 5 years old and demands so much from me, it makes things hard, i would like to find someone that would like to spend time with me, but thats a hard thing to do when you dont get out much and then your confidence level is low as is.
So i just want people toknow that being a single parent is hard and Im sorry to all the mothers out there for actually thinking that is was easy.
thinking that child support was something stupid that women wanted so they can screw the guy over, I can use some kinda help from her mother, but she thinks that she shouldnt have to pay and expects me to drop everything when she wants to walk into my daughters life for a couple of days out of the year.
Shes never given me a penny for nothing, wait a minute yes she did, a twenty dollar gift card from walmart on her third birthday, i was supposed to buy everything she needed with that, so with that i thank her, for helping me start a college fund with that money and getting her all the clothes she ever needed,ohyeah all the food, well you know what i mean.
So i work at a shitty place that lets me leave when i need to so i can get my daughter out of school, or when she doesnt have someone to watch my boss lets me bring her, cannot do all the time, so when its to busy i lose a days pay and lets me go home, but at least he doesnt hold it against me.
Ill make it work, but it just seems that parents made to the kids together so dont you think that they should raise them together, well thats what i thought.